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hi
well i went to the doctors today to get a couple things better in my mind and it turns out knowing wat type of burn makes it hurt so much more.

so i pretty much now wen walking take the old army song"left, left, left right left" and made my own rendition "fuck, fuck, fuck fuck fuck" cause i found out that i managed to get a third degree burn on my foot and the way that i walk it stings every step i take with that foot, i think ive told alot of u how i got the burn, right? well if not here i go again.

well i was siting at the compy and i looked at the freezer and saw it glowing a nice yellow and thought freezers don't glow, especially not yellow. so i got up and saw a pot on the stove its contents fully engulfed in flame, my exact words "Dad, DAD, DAD! THE STOVES ON FIRE!" he comes over and is all flustered but gets to work putting out the flames. By that time it started to climb to the shelves above the stove so while we were blowing out the paper that managed to get caught a thing of, i think, nylon dripped and landed on my foot it hurt but the fire and putting it out was more important at the time. After all that was done i decided to run my foot under cold water in the bathtub cause the sink would be too awkward. it turns out it was a greasy puddle on my foot so i let it stay there, cause i couldn't do anything about it at the time. then only about Tuesday last week did i start putting a band aid on it because it looked gross. so now that i know what it is it hurts like a little demon got a new job stabbing my foot every little while to remind me "HEY, YOU HAVE A THIRD DEGREE BURN HERE. YES, IT DOES HURT DOESNT IT?"

Now to a different part of my thinking area.

well this last monday i found myself in an amazing area of hanging out with laura and we were going to movie place to watch a movie. we decided to watch the ugly truth, i know chick flickish thing blah, blah, blah. there is tho this one part of the movie girl person asks her boy why he loves her and he starts listing off the usually beautiful, funny blah, blah, blah CRAP! she dumps him and starts going outwith this other guy, asks him the same question and his answer, "damned if i kno" that i think is actually a better answer i think than pouring out all this excuses to justify why u love who u love. humanity has been around for a long time and there have been many philosophers who have tried to define love through this time of existence, wen in all reality it just comes down to, something undefinable by human terms makes u want that person more than the person right beside him. sure not most get the whole singing angels bit that are in those great tales that we heard from the fairies but something just clicks. unfortunately it can click in as quickly as click out so we try to find ways to make this one fall in love with us even more wen they are just trying figure out what the hell happened to them, sure they may have loved u before but then cupid went "whoops wrong person changed my mind *twang* there ya go have fun you two" and it fucks us up cause we don't kno wat happened. love hapens. dont try to make it happen cause then it falls to the nothingness. if we dont understand i say dont mess with it and just let it happen, but then this also comes with the problem of loving everything that's human right? wrong! That my good people is lust a totally different and regrettably closely relate thing to love.
lust is also a thing that we cant control but we cant stifle a lot less easier than love, especially for most guys.

i think my train has stopped so i leave u with all that to take in digest and then throw it up again
byes

who really would read this? probably not you

so hi again,
it turns out there is less to do at 3 am then there use to be. i want to rant but i don't. i am also hungry. tends to happen a lot at this weird early time of the night/morning? idk. well i have so far taken 4 drug pills today cause a headache seems to be there lately. should probably top hitting head on solid objects but then how would i deal wit stupid in his world?

i don't kno wat to do
should i take a poo?

well at least i have these songs
tho they may be better replaced by a bong

to bad its illegal
it feels kinda regal

e will see if this works
too bad theres soo many jerks

my hands r being burned away from soap
that isn't really that dope

i could use weird lotion
to cause no commotion

but then i would feel weird
especially with this bead

i think people should talk in rhyms
at least it would be better than mimes

ah how i like their scream
it sets a get mosh scene

OK i stop the rhymes even tho i like them so. to bigger and better things.....maybe not. well my mind can seriously not be blown by how lax i am with things, except for dying in a video game, u shoot me i scream FUCK YOU!!! but then hell i will play another 5 or 6 rounds with ya if ya can put up wit the swearing and screamishing. people r too tightly bound to their nice ideas of how life should be, life should be fun, quick, boring, funny, logical etc. BAH fuck that. life is life living is living its not defined for anyone, cause anyone can define it. humans can be anything u can label hem to be without really caring for labels. let it fucking well be. pacifist. that is me, i ain't here to fully and only please. so i have a contradictory way to meself so to me life is watever comes by, whether fun or not it is wat it is. if people hate they hate and r stupid for it yes but meh they hate. i tried to explain to Stephan how i view the people in this world about races and all that crap, this is wat i told him "u could be the biggest most wanted terrorist in the world i wouldn't care but if u are an ass i don't like u" and trust me its very hard for me to get fully outraged but if i o the German anger that started a world war comes out and goes back again, but if ur there for that time that i have the war in head u better duck cause i gives one swing and we see where it hit.

so i leave u with the mostest recent song tat i listen to.
it called "cut up angels" by the used

nvm i don't really care for the lyrics that much just is a good sound.
so i lave u a different line from a different song

"Look at me can you tell by the way i move and do my hair do you thinks its me or its not me? i don't even care"
the used : I'm A Fake